What do you do when your parent is regressing?
Saturday, November 16, 2024
Mental Energy
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Saturday, June 08, 2024
Working thru grief when it hits
Where we lived hospice was not an option. My mother battled sepsis and was in and out of the ICU for about 6 months, mostly in a coma. But even when conscious she couldn't communicate cos of the tracheostomy and cos she somehow couldn't use her hands to write or signal. Her mind wasn't okay enough to even sign when we pointed out alphabets. She had the most drawn out death and it hurts to think of her dying like that. She could hardly communicate with us but when my dad went to see her once she held his hand and kissed it. From someone who was always undemonstrative that broke my heart. How she must have loved him. My dad could hardly bear to visit her or talk to her cos it hurt him to even see her or think of her suffering. Even now he can't look at her photo much as he gets choked up. I don't know if she missed him just spending time next to her. He' would just chase after doctors and fight with them instead of just sitting and holding her hand. Mummy I'm so sorry you had to die like that. It hits me suddenly sometimes and I wish you could just tell me you're okay.
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Wednesday, April 17, 2024
I lost my domain
I lost my domain. And thats sad cos it was cheap and now, just because i missed the renewal notice(s) I can't afford it.
Well.. tough luck but so what?
It's not like this blog ever took off there and it's not like the domain was ever hot property I could have sold off to the highest bidder so I guess it's no great loss.
I can still use this mirror of my soul thanks to blogspot.
I just have to keep repeating this and avoid kicking myself.
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Labels: my life in goa
Friday, June 30, 2023
Freedom?
Since 2015 I've been haunted by the chains of being the caretaker. Every ride on my bike, my heart would soar and I'd try to absorb the freedom, try to manifest it even bigger and brighter in my life... Despite the anchor in it.
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Labels: This is me
Friday, June 10, 2022
The Things We Dare Not Tell
"The Things We Dare Not Tell"
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Friday, October 29, 2021
Life Bingo!
I've read about people playing Bingo with life events, and recently watching the Order I saw the cute ethics professor playing Bingo with student's excuses (I won't tell you what happens because spoiler... duh... and also because I never want to write those words, but anyway...)
So getting back to me... today I finally checked off a life event I never thought I'd see... a bonafide blackmail attempt! I'm so excited!!
Okay granted it's from some hit-and-miss scammer online and is a bunch of made-up malarky but hey... it counts if I say it does!
The email is from
Jessica <kdyypai@gracebaptistofhurlock.org>
I hope u do not care about my english language sentence structure, because
i'm from Germany. I infected your gadget with a trojan and im in possession
of your personal information out of your computer system.
It was mounted on an adult website then you have picked the movie, it, my
software immediately gain access to your os.
Then, your cam started to record you hand partying, besides i caught a
footage that you have looked at.
Just after some time in addition, it pulled out every one of your social
contact information. If you happen to need me to get rid of your everything
i currently have - transfer me 750 dollars in btc its a crypto-currency. It
is my btc account transfer address :
bc1q7suvam0ae9pjzuhtluuxpyyups
Now you have 28 hours. to produce a decision Once i will receive the
transfer i'll wipe out this evidence and everything thoroughly. Or else,
please be certain this video will be forwarded to all of your friends.
Do Not Reply to This Email
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Tuesday, June 01, 2021
Escape
Running away...
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Thursday, July 16, 2020
Eddie Flynn
If you're like me and terribly confused you've come to the right place.
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Wednesday, December 11, 2019
Netflix and me
Safe - On Season 1 Episode 5 and all I can say is how incompetent are these cops?!
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Wednesday, May 08, 2019
Met Gala 2019 and GOT
Two women offering their flowers to the world
A shag carpet
The magician's trick gone all wrong
This one may have rolled through nuclear waste
Oh so not divine!
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