Thursday, November 30, 2017
FC Goa Wins!!!
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Labels: my life in goa, Work
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Promoted again... and again
Got promoted twice since I wrote here last... Didn't get out of my job, instead got really hooked on it.
Hmmm..... what changed? I guess new management at the helm.
Last I wrote we were starting shifts. They continued till September 2009 and during that time my life changed completely.
My best friend... found new friends. I became lonelier than I've ever been - but a few people got me through that phase.
For some time my company managed to avoid the recession but in the second half of 2009 it caught up with us and we had to lay off some people.
After that, life moved slowly onwards till June or July 2010. That's when a new potential client popped up and said they wanted some associates to come to New Jersey for training. Guess that's when my life changed again. I was selected for the training - and got a trip to NJ and NY in Sept 2010 out of it. The client did not sign us up in the end cos of some unrelated factors but I got noticed by the new management and got promoted to Manager of a new division in Feb 2011.
It's been little more than a year since then but I've lived several lifetimes during this period.
It's been a rocky year but here I am promoted again - this time to Sr. Manager.
How things have changed - now I desperately want to be instrumental in making my company a success - my writing has receded into the back ground.
But who knows - maybe it's time for a change once again. I've noticed that whenever things seem to have settled - the cards get shuffled again...
Shuffle...
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Labels: Merged from "Goan Girl", Work
Monday, October 26, 2009
Back in the morning shift
After 9 months in the evening shift everyone is back to a general 9 to 6 workday. All our families are happy. Are we?
Some of us, definitely are. Some would be happy if it wasn't for the drop in allowances. But many many others are missing the beauty of the night.
A nearly empty office, pin-drop silence, twinkling stars visible from the cafeteria, midnight walks to a nearby roadside stall... even the "slum" nearby looked lovely at night from our vantage point, high above the rest of the world.
It's the end of an era in a way. We now have one more thing to reminisce about.
I've been telling most of my friends that I feel that the end of this year will bring me some clarity on a problem that's been haunting me over the past 2 yrs.
I have this strong feeling that this is just one more necessary step on the road to enlightenment.
If so, I'm scared. I wish I had someone to stand by me at this point, someone to tell me it's all going to be alright.
I want someone to tell me whether I need to batten down the hatches... is there a storm approaching?
I don't want to worry needlessly, but I do so wish I knew whether I should be worrying at all.
Please God, if you're listening, send me a sign.
And if it's not good, give me the strength to handle it.
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Labels: my life in pune, Work
Saturday, October 03, 2009
August 2009 & September 2009
When I'm old and grey and I read through this blog, August 2009 is a month I'd like to remember.
It's the busiest month of my life so far.
I got promoted and I bought a flat. All in one month.
I still can't believe everything happened so fast. Finding a flat i liked, my folks giving me the go-ahead, getting the paperwork in place, getting my home loan approved, getting the registration done, and actually shifting into the flat. All in one month. And all this mind you just after i got new responsibilities at the start of the month that meant that i couldn't take time off and I had to show up and measure up at work!
As for September 2009... not such a good month. Been sick almost continuously. More importantly got to know somethings about certain people that I didn't like learning.
But hopefully by the end of this year I will clear all the junk out of my life and stick with things that are worth it.
Now that everything else is fine I need to clear my emotional life too.
I am seriously considering turning into an emotionally repressed person. The side effects of emotional repression (as seen on tv and in books) seem to be alcoholism and suicide. But thats usually a loooong process. I think I can pull of emotional repression for a year without doing any damage.
It'll be a break from the heightened emotional dramas I've been living through.
Food for thought...
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Sunday, July 05, 2009
Reality check...
Shifts are still going on and now the news is that theywill continue till the end of the year. The reason is valid... the SEZ's r in trouble so our new office is delayed but the repurcussions are bad. What if they still don't have an office by the end of the year....? then what?
anyway.. my laptop stopped working so i got a netbook. Installed DNS 10, bought a headmic and now I'm slowly dictating whatever I've written so far.
Slow going so far but I'm hoping it'll speed up....
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Oh, and by the way... they made me Deputy Manager at work...
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Labels: Alternate universe, Merged from "Goan Girl", Work
Sunday, February 01, 2009
Update
Just to say that I am writing a little every now n then. I've uploaded it on zoho so I can work on it wherever I am.
I have to become more disciplined about it. I'm tired of my current job. Or rather the new people there. Looking to get out by the end of the year.
Shifts start tomorrow for 2 maybe 3 months. I am going to devote atleast an hour each day to writing. Maybe more. Let's see how that goes...
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Labels: Merged from "Goan Girl", Work
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
The Conclusion of 'Goan Girl'...
I just stumbled across this blog and it did bring back so many memories...
I'm going to fill in my story over the past 2 yrs...
In my last post I was supposed to attend a conference where my old prof was teaching.
Well I went for it. He was very nice, I was very nice. I introduced my folks to him afterwards and being the warm, nice people they are they renewed my offer to show him around. HE accepted very graciously. We set off, my prof, me, my dad and my sis. We took him to various places in Goa, like Old Goa, Calangute, took him all over Panjim city and wound up with dinner at Sea Pebbles.
The next day we met him again n took him shopping. When we dropped him back he promised to get in touch. And since then... nada. zip. I haven't heard from him since then though I emailed him twice.
Well after that I thought about joining the Asian School of Cyber Laws but I wanted to know if I could also help them out part time on real cases. That didn't seem possible and then on the 13th of November I answered an interview at my college for a KPO in Pune. I wasn't that interested in the interview but I got through n thought I'd give it a shot.
The Pune branch of that KPO started with just about 30 associates, of which I was one.
Now there are more than 400 employees in Pune alone. And my designation is Asst. Manager.
Sometimes things do work out. In Jan I'll complete 2 yrs in Pune. Life is good here and while I do miss Goa sometimes I'm not ready to go back yet.
That being the case I think it's time the name of this blog was changed. From 'Goan Girl' to....
Well I haven't decided that yet.
Wait n see.
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Labels: Goan girl posts, Merged from "Goan Girl", Work
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Promotions
I've been promoted. Good news anyone would say. I'm pretty happy about it, don't get me wrong, but the promotion unexpectedly brought home something I'd never realised.
I don't have a single person here in Pune who I'm very very close to and who will be happy for me no matter what.
There were many people who congratulated me and wished me well. But their words didn't mean all that much to me. They seemed to saying the words out of common courtesy and general rules of behaviour. No one here in Pune showed real jubilation. There are some people I'm close to. In particular a guy I'm going to call Axle. I'm sad when Axle is sad and happy when he's happy but I've not got a friend like that. Axle is too preoccupied with his own life and there's no one else.
To be fair I have to mention a guy I'll call Ray. Ray does seem to care. He's concerned, caring and seems truly happy for me. But it doesn't mean as much because it's something new. Time will tell if this concern and friendship will last.
So the day I got promoted I had no one to celebrate with.
While I've always known that it's important to have the people you're close to, with you to share your sorrows, this is the first time I've realised that joys don't count for much when you have no one to share them with.
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Labels: my life in pune, Work
Friday, April 18, 2008
Appraisals!
Appraisal time is here. And this is going to be my first ever 'proper' appraisal.
Or rather the time has come for everyone to find out the results of their appraisals. The actual appraisals were done in March. At that time I didn't have time to TALK to anyone, much less sit and update this blog. But it's all going to pay off now. Yippee!
I'm so excited. And just a bit worried. I've been building castles in the air the past few weeks and after endless discussions with others like me it seems that I have grossly over estimated the salary hike I'll be getting.
Not so good.
But who says they're right. I'll just cross my fingers and wait.
Almost everything else in my life is going to hell. This one thing has to be good. It... just... has... to... be... good...
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It wasn't. (April 21st)
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Wednesday, March 07, 2007
The Feb that was...
It's been almost a month and there's so much to tell and yet so much that has to remain untold. The trip to Bombay that I referred to in my last post went off really well. Loads of good memories; most of them work related. I met some really nice people and it was quite a wrench to say good bye at the end of the week.
I loved Bombay. Not for the reasons most people advance, but because if you could hit a pause button you'd find that it's a really beautiful place. Maybe it's just 'old' bombay that has this atmosphere. I don't know. But everywhere I went I felt like I was living with history. I saw the building my grandfather lived in when he was younger than I am now. It's amazing to walk the same paths people have walked over for centuries. I know that most cities have their own history but somehow in Bombay, with its decrepit buildings standing side by side with historic landmarks, you feel it more than you would in other places.
Coming back to Pune brought about loads of changes. Some of us were put in charge of some new joinees. My landlord got a better deal and gave my roommate and me just 2 days to find another place. We did a lot of walking around but didn't find anything even half way acceptable. Then like a miracle we found a place that seemed ok and we grabbed it. It's a pretty good deal but it's a bit in the interior which is causing other problems.
Also since I'm supposed to supervise the newcomers I don't feel like using the net at work for anything other than work. Trying to set a good example I guess. And since I'm usually not in the mood to connect to the net at home my email goes unread for days together. Lucky for me I have a friend who convinced me to take GPRS and then gave me software to access MSN and yahoo messenger on my phone. Now I'm connected almost all day though half the time the phone is on silent and I don't know when someone's IM'img me.
I've been feeling like writing these days. Short stories mainly. Maybe I'll put them up. Maybe I'll just ramble on like this. Guess it doesn't really matter as long as I'm a bit more regular here... :(
For all you people who used to read this blog regularly: Thanks. I'm still alive and so is this blog. Very busy and very cranky, but alive and well.
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Labels: my life in pune, Work
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Thanks Peter!
I now have internet at home on my laptop. All thanks to a guy called Peter who was intelligent enough, patient enough and persistant enough to talk me through the whole procedure of connecting to the net through my Airtel GPRS connection.
He doesn't read this blog. Pity. I'd have praised him until his ears turned red. As it is I now have a net connection and nothing to blog about. Life is fantastic.
Also this means that at the very least, I'll be able to check my email in Bombay. Maybe the trip won't be as bad as I thought it'd be :D
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Labels: my life in pune, Work
Friday, February 09, 2007
Off to Bombay
Off to Bombay for a week. 11th to the 18th. A week when I'm expecting to be busier than I've ever been. A week in which I'll be expected to pay attention and focus, 12 hours a day. A week in which Valentines day will probably slip by unnoticed and hopefully unmissed [Yes I know that's not a word]. A week in which for the 3rd year in a row I won't be with my best friend on her birthday, though we're now roommates. A week in which I doub't I'll find time to check my email or read a book. A week in which I don't think I'll have time to meet any of my Bombay friends though I've been looking forward to that for months. A week in which hopefully my tolerance won't be stretched to new limits.
Though I'll have 9 others with me from the office, I have a feeling this week is going to be the loneliest week of my life.
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Labels: Work
Thursday, January 11, 2007
In Pune...
I've been in Pune almost a week and this is the first time I've gotten near a computer. I'd have been really cranky if I wasn't having such a good time. :)
I'm living near the Pune station. Just a short walk away from INOX, Dholepatel road etc., and as anyone who's been to Pune would know, that's a nice place to be. My laptop is still in Goa. I was supposed to go get it this weekend but I have to go look over some flats this weekend, so I guess I'll have to do without it for another week. As for a proper Internet connection... that's a distant dream :(
Any Pune-ite who knows of a studio apt or a 1 BHK in the station area (and who's interested in being a good Samaritan) can find me here. Just leave a message and I'll get back to you.
I'm really missing all my online friends. I'll try and come online atleast once a week or so until I get a proper connection and I guess that will just have to be enough. It's really time I adjusted to living a normal life instead of focusing so much on the Internet. By the time I get a proper net connection I hope to have found a way to balance both. So much to do so little time. Life is good. :)
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Labels: my life in pune, Work
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Moi = IFFI delegate
I am officially a delegate for IFFI. That's the International Film Festival of India. Me. A delegate. I wonder who accepted my application. I wonder why they accepted it. I'd applied for myself and my dad at the last minute on a whim. Dad's application has been turned down. Again I wonder why.
Oh well, now I'm faced with bigger problems. The delegates can go watch movies for free. All well and good, unfortunately no one I know is a delegate this year. And as those who know me will vouch, I've never gone for a movie alone. At the same time there's no way I'm going to let that delegate pass go to waste, so guess this is going to be another first.
-> Stand in line with strangers.
-> Mournfully note that all the cute guys are accompanied by girls.
-> Ignore perverts who try and brush past unnecessarily close.
-> Glare at those who try to do more than brush past.
-> March into the theatre with the glare fixed to my face so that people don't think they can walk over me.
-> Search for spot between some women.
-> If I can't find a spot like that look for kids or guys my age or younger. They're easy to handle.
-> Avoid old men like the plague. You can never be sure what they're up to.
-> At the end of the movie wait for the crowd to thin out before leaving so as to avoid pinches and pokes.
-> Congratulate myself on having seen a movie alone.
Yeah... the benefits of being single...
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Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Updates on C Law conferences
I wrote a really nice letter to my old prof telling him how I really need his help sice I'm at the crossroads, blahblahblah. About 5 or 6 in the evening.
The very next morning I found a reply in my Inbox. A lovely email telling me he's been there n giving his no and telling me to call him anytime and also telling me he's coming to Goa from the 17th to the 19th for a one day conference shceduled on the 18th at the International Centre and that we could meet up then. He suggested that I call either that day or the next.
I called him that very evening. I don't know if I was a bit rushed n if he felt uncomfortable or what. He suggested i sign up to attend the conference if possible and said that since he now had my phone number he'd call when he reached Goa. I asked if it was his first trip here n since he said yes offered to show him around if he wanted since mom n dad had told me to offer.
Anyway we didn't talk long cos he said he was travelling.
The day after that, on the 9th, I attended a conference on C Crime and C Laws. It was fascinating. The guy from ASCL was especially good. I asked and apparently there is one course I can do there that will make me a C Crime Investigator. I've been in the 7th heaven cos of that. Only today am I coming down to earth a bit. Even if I do well there what guarentees are there I'll get a job. Very confused.
Hope my prof can help me thought I'm doubtful cos I realised that he's an expert in IPR n C Law. Anyway I've signed up for the conference so if things go as usual by the end of the conference I'll probably decide to study that!
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Labels: Goan girl posts, Merged from "Goan Girl", Work
Friday, September 01, 2006
Must write to old prof.
I've been supposed to write to an old professor of mine for the past 2 weeks atleast. I keep postponing it. Not sure why. I think maybe I'm scared that he won't reply or that he'll reply but I won't like his reply.
Yes, I know. That's not a valid reason to postpone the email. Maybe I'm turning into as big a funk as b_b.
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Labels: Goan girl posts, Merged from "Goan Girl", Work
Thursday, August 10, 2006
"C" plans dashed
Today's Thursday. Tomorrow it'll be a whole damn week since I wrote to the 'friend of my dad's friend'. I was so nervous about writing to him I spent the whole of last week postponing it. Then on Friday my dad asked about it n I didn't have any excuse to avoid it so I wrote a really nice email telling him i'd waited for the weekend out of consideration to him. Yeah right! Anyway, when I didn;t get an immediate reply I thought my plan backfired cos he doesn;t chk his mail on the weekeknds. But it's almost the next weekend now. He's had almost a full week. Apparently I'm not important enough to get the courtesy of a reply.
Anyway, I researched the subject and I don't see any chances of me making it in this field unless he gives me entree. Which at present has moved from the realms of my dreams to the outer reaches of my fantasy.
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Labels: Goan girl posts, Merged from "Goan Girl", Work
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
The job hunt so far...
I skipped June entirely. Had gone down to B'lore for some exams. Life is getting way too complicated now.
I've decided I'm gonna just document my job hunt on this blog. It's such a crazy way to live each day.
Fine here goes... I've got a law degree. I have a post graduate degree in 'C' law. and I'm doing my Masters in 'B' law. Finals of 'B' Law are in Feb and I've got to have some direction by then... Please God...
Well anyway, I had some exams in Feb. and during those exams I realised that my ideal job would be as an Acquisitions Editor for a big publishing company. Yeah right. Easy to dream of, tough to actually work towards.
I figure that before you get a shot at the acquisitions side you should have some experience as a copy-editor. Since I don't know anything about copy-editing I thought I'd look out for openings as a sub-editor.
At the beginning of June I applied to two places in Bombay. Two LPO's. That's legal outsourcing for those who are lucky enough to be unfamiliar with the terminology.
One place said that they'll let me know, which of course meant, 'get real, you think we want you!', and the other place was willing to take me n pay me 10,000 bucks of which only 8,800 would be in hand. I didn't really like the atmosphere there though the location was good. I figured it wasn't worth it to do a job in a hostile environment where I'd be earning peanuts for atleast 6 months. That's how long I'd have to be a trainee. I'd have weekends off but absolutely NO LEAVE for the first six months.
I figured I could give up a dream if they were paying me well but with 8,800 and expenses in Bombay being what they are I could envision myself playing the part of the pauper and depending on my folks despite working my ass off.
I told them I needed to go to B'lore and answer my exams and as of now I may still be able to get the damn job if I want to try for the August batch.
Then in July I came across this great ad. A post as an editor. While the job sounded ok, the people and the attitude seemed so great I was quite willing to work for about 10,000K. Then I find that salary could be anything from 11,000K to 20,000K. It depended on how I did through their tests etc. Well they sent me an online test. I tried. I honestly did. N I'm very embarrassed to say I thought I did decently.
Well I got an email telling me I wasn't good enough for them. So apparently the one thing/ the one job, I thought would lead me towards my dreams is not an option. So I suck at editing.
Back to square one. Or that's what you think.
My father who thought I was crazy to think of switching from law to editing saw an ad in the paper on Saturday. He saw the words sub-editor and called and set up an interview. I guess he'd be ok with 'editing' if it meant I was based in Goa. This job was for sub-editors for a new up-coming T.V. Channel.
This channel will be starting from August 15th and they're looking for staff at all levels. However as I found during the interview today, sub-editing in terms of media like T.V. News is obviously very different from editing in the print media. I could have told my dad that but I figured he wouldn't take my opinion as solid fact. Anyway, the whole experience was unreal. I was squirming hoping I'd get out of there. Feeling like an idiot. The interviewer, a kindly old gentleman couldn't understand what was making me change my field. How could I explain to him what I find so hard to understand myself.
Then he assumed I really wanted to get into the world of media and made me feel even worse by offering to let me join as a trainee if I was really interested since obviously the actual posts needed to be filled by people with experience. I was wondering how I could escape when my dad started asking questions and I realised I didn't have to worry.
Obviously since it's related to the news the hours could sometimes be erratic. And as a trainee I'd get only 3,00-4,000 which would be increased to the grand sum of 6,000 if I actually became a sub-editor. Hehehe. I could hardly keep myself from kicking my dad's foot. He actually sat there and tried to discuss the job some more. Maybe he didn't want us to look too money crazy. Still... c'mon by asking about the timings he'd already got one way out ready. Why did he have to sit there and discuss the salary etc as if it really was an option!
Anyway, I finally got out of there. I've to call n let them know by the end of the month if I'm interested. That's what comes of not being able to say no.
N then to top off my day, to keep my dad happy I asked him to call up an old friend of his who knows a whiz kid of my age who's in the field of 'C' law. He's apparently doing very well and though he's on the scientific side and I'm on the legal side I was hoping he'd, worst case scenario, tell me what I need to learn to get into the field, and best case scenario, give me a job. LOL... I wish.
Anyway, we went and met my dad's friend and he will ask Whiz Kid's dad for his email address or something. I don't want to jinx anything so I'm going to shut up now.
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Labels: Goan girl posts, Merged from "Goan Girl", Work
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
back again...
I'm back n not very happy about it. Had a nice time. Did well (I think), made some new friends, met some of the old ones, bought loads of movies, ..... yeah, all in all a lovely trip.
That's the best thing about my memory. In cases like this, everything bad that happened fades into the background, leaving bright happy snapshots in my mind.
For instance, if I really delve into my memory, I can find things that didn't go well. A friend who I couldn't connect with because of the circumstances and yes... because of her nature. Yet, if asked, all I'd glimpse instantly is an hour of laughter with that same friend.
I wonder why my mind insists on blacking out all the unpleasantness in my life. I wonder if it thinks it's protecting me. I wonder if other minds do the same for the people they occupy.
And yet, with everything that's gone right... with every happy memory,... there is probably an accompanying shadow. I suppose it's the shadow of the parts I've forgotten. The forgotten has it's own weight. Maybe that's why I'm not as happy as I should be.
Or maybe it's not that complicated at all. Maybe I'm not happy about being back because I'm not happy about what I've come back to.
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Saturday, May 27, 2006
whoo hoo... online endorsement!
| You Should Be a Science Fiction Writer |
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