It's a baby girl...

I read this post and I cried...

If you're a girl in India... you probably will too.

And if you have no clue what I'm talking about - I envy you!

It feels so good....

...until it feels so bad

Three years ago

I stood on a shore

wondering if this was it

if I'd ever love again

God laughed

I found love that day

in a spectacularly unexpected way

A love that warmed an unloved heart

And I was happy... at the start

God laughed, the page turned

all wasn't as it seemed, I learned

my love died (in more ways than one)

left me in the shadows, entered the sun,

And that was the story so far

So I put my feelings in a jar

Decided - No making plans, no bluff,

Give God no reason to laugh

But now once again,

like an absolute sucker for pain,

I feel that old familiar feeling sweeping over me

I feel a quiver in each dimpled knee

My heart sings songs, my thoughts scatter

from lost alleyways my dreams, they gather

And I know God probably just wants a laugh

But I find myself tempted, torn in half,

would it be so bad, to allow myself to feel so good

to build castles in the air, and count stars in the wood

Will I be strong enough to bear the pain ahead

when my happiness eventually stops dead,

should I give heart a chance, for now be glad,

should I allow myself to feel so good....until I feel so bad...

XPS 12 Sierra

A side effect of stress it may be but no one can deny that it is adorable.  Will post a picture later...

Edited - Later :-)

Here's what it looks likes...

My One Wish

Humans are wonderful, but they have many flaws.  One of the biggest is the instinctive tendency to be contrary.  If you don't need to do something, chances are you may decide to do it or not, depending on what you feel like.  But if you need to do it, most probably you will resent it, at least unconsciously.

And that's why, God willing, I will never need someone; I will never be dependent on someone.  Not physically, not emotionally, not financially, not socially.

Yesterday I didn't know what was the one thing I would ask for if I had one wish.

Today I know.