So Easter is come and gone... and the much needed clarity did not come with it. Others seem to have had watersheds in their lives.. One friend almost re-started and then almost re-ended (yes I know that's not a word) a relationship. Another one who had been on the brink for the past months, suddenly had a small disagreement blow into a big chasm between her and the guy in question. Lucky them maybe - Easter signs from God.
Maybe God is pissed I didn't listen last time - but seriously that's so unfair. It's not like I didnt believe. Yes, I stayed on - but that's only cos I'm someone who will hang on till the grim end. It's just my nature. It's got nothing to do with me not believing the sign. I knew it was headed for a dead end - I just wanted to be there right until the dead end. (And I was - but more about that some other time..)
So anyway, coming back to the present - what do you do when you're coasting along and life seems good, but you know there's quicksand under the road? You pray - for guidance, for help, for a #$@^&% clue.
Maybe I didn't pray hard enough - I don't know the reason, but there was no clue.
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I'd gotten that far when I decided to google 'watershed' before I hit 'publish'. The first link I clicked on was Wikipedia - and for once was useless. It didn't have the word defined in the sense that I used it. Disappointed I clicked on the second link and somehow it turned out to be the Amazon page for a book called Watershed Moments by someone called Gari Meachem. I read the review and bought the book - it seemed serendipitous (maybe God didn't like me grumbling!).
The link is here. And trust me, it was hard work to find the link a second time. I only found it cos I bought the book and had the author's name. (Which makes it even more amazing that I stumbled across it the first time just searching for 'watershed'!)
Anyway, I've started reading the book, because honestly - after whining on about a sign for days now - I need to pay attention to this great big one that was thrust before me..
Maybe God is pissed I didn't listen last time - but seriously that's so unfair. It's not like I didnt believe. Yes, I stayed on - but that's only cos I'm someone who will hang on till the grim end. It's just my nature. It's got nothing to do with me not believing the sign. I knew it was headed for a dead end - I just wanted to be there right until the dead end. (And I was - but more about that some other time..)
So anyway, coming back to the present - what do you do when you're coasting along and life seems good, but you know there's quicksand under the road? You pray - for guidance, for help, for a #$@^&% clue.
Maybe I didn't pray hard enough - I don't know the reason, but there was no clue.
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I'd gotten that far when I decided to google 'watershed' before I hit 'publish'. The first link I clicked on was Wikipedia - and for once was useless. It didn't have the word defined in the sense that I used it. Disappointed I clicked on the second link and somehow it turned out to be the Amazon page for a book called Watershed Moments by someone called Gari Meachem. I read the review and bought the book - it seemed serendipitous (maybe God didn't like me grumbling!).
The link is here. And trust me, it was hard work to find the link a second time. I only found it cos I bought the book and had the author's name. (Which makes it even more amazing that I stumbled across it the first time just searching for 'watershed'!)
Anyway, I've started reading the book, because honestly - after whining on about a sign for days now - I need to pay attention to this great big one that was thrust before me..
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